Today I felt damned perky (sorry, Julie). The last couple of days I have felt myself coming up further from the Abyss, not really in the "happy" area yet, but not in the depressed area.
In fact, I felt beyond perky. As the morning went along, I felt the edge of mania* coming on. My mood and energy began to develop an edge. It felt to me there was a thin, electrical edge to my mood. My body developed a tremor and I felt ill. I felt nauseated and irritable.
My mood and physical feelings deteriorated quickly from there and I had to miss a commitment (but was able to email in what I needed to).
I wasn't expecting this. I'm on more and greater amounts of meds — twice as much for Pristiq (for anxiety), and half again as much for the Lamictal (mood disorder, cycling). And then my added Abilify (boost the other two). Plus, I have Lorazepam for sleeping and for taking off any anxiety that the Pristiq doesn't handle. This quick plunge made me feel — again — like I'm not on any meds at all. So I wonder what would be the effect of taking me off of everything and slowly bringing me back up? Cuz this isn't fun. And it's so reminiscent of the old days.
I was going to talk about my meds and my history of being on them, but I'm far too distracted and buzzy to write. At all. I'll write more later.
*Not the Bipolar I (Manic-Depressive) Mania. Something that is much, much less explosive. I might stay up extra hours, not days. I might spend a couple hundred dollars, not ten thousand.
That's okay, it seems as though perky happens. In our case, it also manics itself all over the damn place.
ReplyDeleteI think you definitely need to talk to nurse lady about the meds, you may be on to something. Sometimes we actually DO know best.
Julie
"perky happens. In our case, it also manics itself all over the damn place."
ReplyDeleteI want that on a tee shirt.
I have a call into to the psych. I will let you know.
Yep, time to check in with the doc. Medicine needs tweaking sometimes. Let us know how it goes.
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